Back at it again with the inconsistency of not writing every day, but consistent with writing when Mercury is going retrograde. The truth is I've landed a role in life that I feel I was meant for and I'm doing my best to grasp that. When I truly believe in something and feel gratitude to wake up and go somewhere every day, I know life is going right somehow. One day I hope the people who hired me see how seriously I take what I do, in the sense that it really does mean so much to me. But right now they just want to see dollar signs, and I can't blame them. So do I!
I went to reach out to someone yesterday, and when doing my homework on this person I was lead to their Twitter, which lead me to a personal entry on their platform about how their life wasn't working for them so they just MADE THE SHIFTS NECESSARY. I still haven't reached out to this girl, but I plan to, because coming across her write up made me realize that it's okay to admit when things aren't okay.
Everyone loves to read uplifting material, but uplifting material can sometimes come in the form of connecting with someone else who may be facing similar battles. It may confirm that you are exactly where you need to be and give you the boost necessary to proceed. I've noticed that the most vulnerable accounts/memes are filled with some of the darkest feelings. This is a dark world but it is within us to bring the light. Part of bringing the light is surfacing the dark and making it clear that we don't face it alone.
I personally started an anonymous account a couple years ago out of mental loneliness. That community means so much to me that I had to go back to them, and I plan to go back to them the way that I used to, connect with them on another level the way I originally planned to, live my dreams with people who have been with me through a crazy journey of self-discovery. I could never do this alone and we never are alone, I think that's the biggest take away.
With that being said, I'd like to share something that I shared with my secret Instagram and end this entry there, because I have other shit to talk about too.
Me, a few weeks ago:
Last night I had an epiphany. It's not about who gets the answers first, but rather sharing the experience as to how we navigate getting those answers. I can't be ashamed to share my dark times when life doesn't come with a manual. How we get our answers is our unique form of expression. How we learn our lessons is our artistry. How we deal with it is how we evolve. We can't hold back from progression because it comes in all different forms, which is why it's called in FORM at ion. It doesn't always come in the same matter and form, for everyone, especially with different levels of consciousness.