For the first time in my life, I have never heard more people say this was the most difficult year of their journey. I have included what I feel are my "real" selfies of 2016. No highlight reel. No doubt this year was turbulent, but as it comes to a close I am actively practicing the art of appreciating the blessings this fuck shit year brought to the table. If you're reading this, you are a survivor.
We were all given obstacles in our own form and I truly believe this was a test of character. This was the year we got to hyper-analyze ourselves and be forced to make decisions that contributed to our higher selves whether we knew it or not. A lot of us have struggled emotionally, financially. You were never alone, as lonely as these times have felt. A month ago I was questioning my entire life. Will I make it? Is this place right for me? Is this person making me better or sucking my precious energy for their own personal benefits? Will my vision be understood? When will this all turn a corner to a better world?
There has always been a battle of light versus dark, but I suppose it took the most recent election to wake the masses up. As one of my mentors says.. this is a time where the train is leaving the station and you are either on board or left behind- in terms of consciousness levels. The most important take away is that we need to come together and stem our intentions from love.
I could sit here and write about all of the shit experiences 2016 delivered, but I'd rather highlight the beauty of damn near closing it. Yes, I lost my backbone of 25 years. I danced with the devil in my heart. I isolated myself to achieve what I knew I was put here on Earth for. I had to drop or separate myself from people I thought would be around forever. Everything as I knew it, changed.
Looking at the glass half full, I realize how much has been learned and mastered about life and the energy play at hand. When you rid situations that no longer serve you, the universe delivers 10x better, purer. When I pulled back from everything and everyone to focus on my career full throttle, a shift occurred. I love my job and the people I work with. I love that when I booked my first campaign this week, I was able to tell my childhood friends that I have known for 10+ years, the people I always imagined making that call to. I have my OG soul family back and my heart feels so full. They are my foundation, they are a part of me, and I am so happy we all managed to find our way back to one another.
My life is now filled with coworkers that I can truly call my friends. I look forward to Friday's and laughing so hard my face muscles feel like they're going to break and walking into tattoo shops in the west village at midnight for a spontaneous "fuck it" moment to mark new eras.
My mission with this post is to help encourage you to reflect on the blessings this year has brought you, because we already know it's been the worst. Look at the glass half full and remember we are human at the most exciting time to be in physical form.
I love you all, and seriously appreciate my readers. Don't forget that when life pushes you down 9 times, you get up ten. ;)